the last two chapters of 2018

Last Friday night (or the early morning of Saturday, depends on how you look at it), I finished the last segment of the script of the documentary I'm working on. After reading files and files of transcripts of over two months worth of interviews, I've finally been able to cut up all the necessary sound…Read more the last two chapters of 2018


Sleep Walker (a draft)

The body is awake but the mind is somewhere else but where is it? There are no trails of breadcrumbs to find my way back to the beginning. No cruel mother or father to run away from or blame my worst behaviors on. There's just the road ahead of me that goes for miles and…Read more Sleep Walker (a draft)

sleeping and dreaming

Last night was the first night of good sleep that I got in the past two months. It has been a tough two months. I think I've been saying that often here. The initial rush and momentum that pervaded my return to Manila ended abruptly in the second week of June. A guy I was…Read more sleeping and dreaming

down spin

I'm fighting off a 'bout of depression. I didn't realize it until halfway through the week when I became aware of the symptoms and the thoughts that have been occupying my mind. I am absolutely lethargic, I feel no need to get out of bed, and I don't want to work. Deep inside, I want…Read more down spin

self-imposed sick leave

As a freelancer, I don't have a regular schedule. I set up meetings with clients and collaborators and I try my best to spread them out so that I don't have multiple meetings in one day, if possible. I try to take it easy so that I don't put unnecessary stress on my body and…Read more self-imposed sick leave