year’s end

This month's Mercury in Retrograde really fucked me up badly. Everything started crashing down and it's as if all the bad mojo of this year has been rammed up into a wall, represented by the last day of 2017. I've been saying that this has been a challenging year and, I'm afraid to admit, that…Read more year’s end

Almost ready for the break

These days, I'm just finishing off grading the last of my papers and then I don't have anything else that's pressing so I can focus on my scripts. I've been so stressed out but in a good way. Things are ending. This term is ending and I can see a stretch of days where I…Read more Almost ready for the break

midlife, crisis

I'm almost forty and I've been going through a really strange shift in perspective. I don't know but I feel like I'm second guessing everything I've been doing lately and I cannot seem to feel content with any of the choices I've made since the year started. Is this what people call midlife crisis? I…Read more midlife, crisis

nine years ago, today

Every year, on this day, I write about having been diagnosed with HIV. It happened nine years ago today. I got a call from the clinic telling me to come over to receive the results of my HIV test in person. I didn't know about the procedure back then. I complained about having to go…Read more nine years ago, today

who is this person in my mirror?

Lots of stuff are happening right now and I can't believe the person that I've become. The face that stares back at me when I look in the mirror seems familiar but I don't know who he is, really. I mean, it's not just the facial hair. It's not just the fact that I've gotten…Read more who is this person in my mirror?

The Day of the Dead

It's All Saint's Day or something. Day of the Dead. Something like that. I never did take to the ceremony of it. I remember, because we were so practical as a family, we didn't join in on the whole go-to-the-cemetery-and-respect-the-dead sort of thing. It's a carnival out there at the cemetery this time of the…Read more The Day of the Dead