I was hanging out at Pineapple Lab a few weeks ago when I was introduced to someone who was happy to meet me. Apparently, she has heard of me and what I’ve done. Her name was Ross and she asked if I could speak at Social Media Day, a completely volunteer, non-profit event that brings together speakers from various fields to talk about how social media has changed different industries.
She asked if I could join a panel to talk about how social media has changed film.
It was a great opportunity for me to remind everyone what else there is about me. I’m a filmmaker too. I think I’ve blogged about this already — how, for a long time, I felt that I was only important or relevant because of my advocacy. It’s great when I get to show other sides of me. I’m an artist too. I don’t want my HIV to be all that I am known for.
But I would have to thank the advocacy because it has made me very comfortable speaking in public. I don’t get frightened, being in front of people and talking, and I’ve managed to gain the skill of figuring out what I want to say in a very short span of time so that I always seem to have something to say.
I checked the hashtag #NextPH on Twitter and I saw quite a bit of people quoting me for the things I said during the talk. I have to admit, it feels good to know that people think I have important thing to say. I work very hard to go through life and learning as much as I can and sharing what I know. Opportunities like these are important for me. I get renewed by the act of sharing and giving.
And if you’ve read the previous post, you know I’m feeling a little drained and empty.
In a way, embarrassingly enough, this was good for my self-esteem. I needed this.
I’m very grateful for the team behind Social Media Day for having invited me and giving me an opportunity to talk about what I know in front of such a large audience. We all have our way, our own process, to getting our shit back together. This is one of mine.