I’ve been saying “no” to projects and to invitations to go out. I know it doesn’t seem that way with all my talk about getting new clients everyday and all the times you may have seen me out on my Instagram stories but you do not know the amount of stuff that I’ve had to say no to as well. There’s just not enough time in the week, in the day.
The work that I do is intense. Writing a movie is not easy. Writing everyday is not easy. I guess that’s why I go out and see friends when I can because it helps me reset myself back to a neutral state, otherwise I’d still be in that frame of mind from the last work that I did. The resetting of myself is crucial to keeping my sanity. It helps keep me productive.
But there’s not enough time in the day. There’s not enough time in the week. And there’s so much I want to do. And there are so many friends that I want to see and hang out with still. And there’s someone I really want to spend a lot of time with if it was possible; more than I already do, I guess.
But that’s not how the world was put together. And I’ve never been good with time. And I’m being good to myself and holding on to empty fragments of time just for myself, just to be alone and not do anything so that my body rests and heals.
But I’d just wish there was just more time to do everything that I could possibly do and not have to say no.
But I say no.