If you ever get close to a human
and human behaviour
be ready, be ready to get confused
— Human Behavior by Bjork
Right now, it’s like all the dark energies and disappointments and savagery of this whole year has collected as it pushes closer to the year’s end. I wonder what it is going to be like and feel like come December.
It’s so toxic and it is taking all of me not to show the wear-and-tear. That part of me I keep to myself and let out through my work. That’s my release. But even I’m having a hard time holding it all in.
I’m opting to listening to darker music now or songs that echo the questions or moods that swirl madly inside of me.
I don’t know why I love Bjork and her music so much. I have always attributed it to the fact that as the youngest member of my family I have been dragged along to every older sibling’s room to listen to their music. Or my parents. They filled me with their musical tastes that range from classical to Broadway to pop to rock and heavy met becaal and even reggae and calypso. Striving to retain a sense of individuality, in my youth, I rushed into the safety of weird music. The unconventional and the strange.
I was introduced to Kate Bush by my parents who loved her music but they always praised it for its strangeness. Bjork was introduced to me through my brother’s girlfriend at the time, and specifically with this song, Human Behaviour, and it was unlike anything I’ve ever heard before.
I loved singing along to them even if I never really understood the depths of which they were talking about until I was much older. I liked the over-dramatic and intensity in my music — Tori Amos and Fiona Apple. I quickly devoured Tanita Tikaram’s The Cappuccino Songs because my friend who gave me her cassette said she loved the album but found Tikaram’s voice so “alien and strange.” I took it from her and fell instantly in love.
Now, I return to Bjork at this strange and alien period in human history and found some level of solace and belonging in her debut solo album as Bjork.
But oh to get involved in the exchange
of human emotions is ever so, ever so satisfying
and they and my here on
And there is no map
and a compass wouldn’t help at all
— Human Behaviour by Bjork