I love my friends; I really do. I wouldn’t be in this world if it weren’t for them and my family. And I don’t even mean that in a figurative/metaphorical way; I mean that literally. I almost died in 2010 from meningitis (complications due to HIV) and even if I gave up, they fought for me to keep fighting. They are the reason why I’m still in this world.
I don’t want to sound ungrateful, though, but the last month and a half has just been a crazy, dizzying time of just meeting up and catching up with people. It was great to feel alive again, to feel the warmth and love and people, especially the ones who came from across the seas because they have moved away. But I really need to stop socialising and seeing people.
The last batch of balikbayans have left or are leaving this weekend. I’m glad to have seen them and spent time with them; but it is time for me to focus.
December is over and January has begun and there’s work to do. In fact, my life is about to go on overdrive and get an overhaul. I’ve got big plans this year and it includes new jobs, coming closer to my innermost goals which started as far back as the 80s, and I’m bringing with me a whole new perspective that I’ve been struggling with over the past six months.
So many things are going to happen. I really can do with a little less socialising and a whole lot of working. The lethargy that consumed me, the inactivity that took over late last year is gone. I’m on fifth gear and all these social obligations and commitments are getting in the way.
It is time to get busy.